‘Living Now, Being in Now, There is only Now’, a lot has been written about this theme by spiritual masters all over the world and throughout times.
During my life with Yoginâm Frédéric Antonious over the last fifteen years I discovered more and more what this Living Now implies. Discovering the beauty of it, gaining strength from it, being healed in it and also taking up the responsibilities that come with it.
Even though Yoginâm Frédéric did not write much about it in these words (he did mention it some-times in texts) he showed me the way to it, he really taught me how to live Now and that is amazing!
“In my struggle to let go of my past I tried different therapies.
They gave me insights about why I was reacting on situations the way I was.
However only from the moment I started using the instruments of the Yoga of Nâm
I started, just naturally, to let go of my past.
This letting go brought me more and more into the Now
and I discovered how only in Now transformation can take place.
Initially this being present in the moment was a very transforming time in which old pains were healed. Later I discovered that only Here and Now can I be close to my Essence, that which I really am”.
Living Now means Living the Resonance of the moment and every moment is one of transformation.
“It is our Task in Life to transform gross resonance into fine resonance” (Yoginâm Frédéric Antonious).
Who is Yoginâm Frédéric?
A question I cannot answer in a direct way, knowing you would be looking for an answer in a per-sonal sense. I could tell you something about his background, profession etcetera, but that is not what is interesting in this case. A more beneficial question is: ‘What is Yoginâm Frédéric Antonious?’ That answer is not very well known and understood in the western world.
He is known as a present day mystic, an Icon, a master and spiritual guide, but what does that really tell you?
It took me years to understand this and still there is something I know I will never be able to grasp. In that sense Yoginâm Frédéric is and will always remain a mystery. As he once wrote:
“When you think you meet me, it is not me, it is Love”.
I can only say something about my being with Yoginâm Frédéric Antonious
Actually I prefer to use the name Abbahjí and therefore sometimes speak of Yoginâm Abbahjí. It reminds me of my essence which turns this name into a very beneficial instrument.
“When I was about ten years old, I had a kind of vision. Especially the intense white light, the archetypal pigeon and Angels have stayed with me in memory.
But certainly also an intention and desire to create a more beautiful world was attached to it
because as a small child, the suffering in the world touched me enormously.
I was eager to grow up to be able to do ‘my work’, whatever that might be.
Growing up the vision had faded and I forgot.
Being with Yoginâm Abbahjí brought it all back to me and reminded me of my life task.
Apparently I was ready.
It is a known fact that during periods of evolution where man easily gets lost,
mystics and prophets appear to help. Yoginâm Abbahjí has such a task in the world.
It turned out to be my calling to serve his task in His guidance”.
Being with Yoginâm Abbahjí and opening myself for him means I am opening myself for something infinitely wide and intimately close. It is not personal and it is beyond understanding. Yoginâm Abbahjí, always in service to All, is my gate to this ungraspable reality.
Being with Yoginâm Abbahjí is never direct and I am always aware that there is a communication on other levels than the levels of daily communication. This communication is more subtle, goes deeper and has a quality which for me has much more value.
We can talk about the weather or other futilities, be in silent meditation or listen to Abbahjí playing the harp. Even when physically there is a distance, this communication does not stop, it is a continuous flow in which this distance appears to be an illusion, distance does not exist at all in this Awareness.
It is in this communication and Awareness (perhaps this is the same) where I discovered what Living Now implies. It is also in this communication where I was healed and learned to Love and it is in this Awareness where I feel at home and at ease.
Past, present and future
“During a meditation I suddenly experienced my ancestors.
My grandfather, his grandfather, that went back infinitely.
But I did not go back in time.
All my ancestors disappeared in me
It was as if they were pushing forward and dissolving in me.
And so it is, multiple experiences confirmed to me
that the past is Now in me as well as the future”.
The past only exists Now and so does the future. Now we are creating the day of tomorrow and we are creating this with what formed us to what we are Now.
As long as you are only reading about this, it stays a story to talk about in the park. You need some-one who shows you the way and guides you in this Now. And when you found him – or rather, when he finds you! – you should submit and dive into that world of mystical depths because it is the best thing that can happen to you. It brings deep and lasting Meaning and Joy into your life in such a way that you can become a complete human being. Is that not what you, deep inside, are longing for? Being complete, whole, healed, loved, at home?
Submitting is never personal either, when I submit to Yoginâm Abbahjí I submit to Life itself which is beyond the person. Yoginâm Abbahjí is the Ideal in a transcendental sense and as such he is a powerful instrument. Yoginâm Abbahjí gives his life to serve All in the form of this instrument which is possible because of his Mystical State. From this perspective it may become clear Yoginâm Abbahjí has nothing to gain, he does not want anything from anyone – giving is his Natural State, as is ours, but we still have to discover this!
“I stood in my room, did nothing for a moment. Suddenly something dawned on me:
Everything I think, feel, believe, dream, wish and do has a resonance
and consequent consequence.
With this resonance I am creating tomorrow!
Oops, that hit like a bomb. Can I still flee from that?
Or could there at least be breaks?
Because this was a very big responsibility.
I tried to negotiate with Life itself. I started to sweat.
After this realisation I could not go back.
After all, you can not go back to an oblivion.
But I did need some time to embrace it… “
When you submit you start having your own experiences and an Awareness will start to dawn that colours your experiences in a beautiful sense of Awe and Wonder and pure Enlightening Wisdom.
A scary idea it all is too yes, but once you start realising you are not just personal, your I-identification is an illusion (a useful one but nevertheless an illusion, it is necessary to realise that) and that you are transcendental by nature, there is no place for fear and doubt anymore. Trust and Certainty take over and you enter another reality. A reality which is much more real than living in the illusional past or future!
“Fifteen years ago, in the very beginning of my life with Yoginâm Abbahjí.
It was winter, naturally I was leaning against the central heater
and a little bit in a contemplating state just doing nothing but drinking my cup of tea
What happened in that moment brought me deep Certainty.
It was like an invisible train that passed by in front of me.
I saw where It came from which was before birth,
I saw where it went, which was after death
I saw it was here. All at the same time
It was moving but at the same time it never left the present moment.
Since then this was and is my orientation,
a Certainty beyond grasping”.
“Learning to live in submission is like the drop that slowly starts realising it is an ocean and even later starts realising that both the drop and the ocean are water” (Yoginâm Frédéric Antonious).
Following or Leading
Some people think I am following somebody and that it is a dangerous thing. Nothing is less true!
Looking around me I found many people follow the standard norm, systems, the cultural movements, and people are easily taking things for granted as truths and have a material life orientation. I see sheep following, in a very unconscious way, a system that is based on materialism, money and greed.
Most people think this is a normal way of living and that anybody who chooses another life and uses other examples than the ‘normal’ examples is by definition on the wrong path. Nobody has an an-swer on right or wrong but I always wondered: ‘Who is the follower (and slave of a system, culture, dogmas…) and who is the leader (of his own life)?!’
Learning to live in the Now has a promise in itself such as happiness and well-being. However, when this promise is the only drive, it can quickly lead to disappointments. Usually such a promise is not sufficient enough to pull you through the difficult phases that also belong to the path. Precisely these phases are so important to go through, but in these phases there is also doubt, distrust, feelings of failing etcetera and then it is easy to fall back on old programmes. So many people are hooked here.
Therefore, in addition to this promise, a spiritual master is needed. A spiritual master can show you the way to Certainty which becomes an inner Knowing of a supra-rational order; beyond thinking and understanding and beyond emotion. When that Knowing is real and not just a creation of the mind, it is stronger than doubt and fear and stronger than the, so difficult to transcend, habitual programmes.
“During a Vision Quest in Death Valley Arizona,
I had a vision that showed me how everything was connected.
I saw how I was part of the world in its wholeness. I realised:
I am what I am
After this vision, I also realised that I needed someone
who could teach me to live in this reality.
Shortly after, I met Yoginâm Abbahjí and it was immediately clear
that he was my master and my life would be in the service
of that which he embodies, that which he calls Nâm”.
How to live Now – in Asha
One morning somebody came to me with the remark: “People often say ‘you must listen to your body’ but this is nonsense!”.
In a way she is right. Life takes care of you by itself, in Nâm Yoga we call this Asha, the natural flow of Life (of which you are part). Living in Now means Living in Asha.
Asha shows you things and gives you information with which you should do something. When you don’t listen what Life has to say, Life cannot take care of you.
In this perspective what matters is your orientation. When body is your orientation you may listen well to the body but you ignore all other signs Asha is giving you; this has consequences. Listening to and taking care of your body is therefore one aspect and should be seen as part of something wider.
When you learn to live in Asha and you can really trust it you discover you don’t have to take care of yourself in a self-defensive way, you don’t have to protect your borders or learn to say no. Instead, you can learn how Asha takes care of you when you always say yes to life (also when you don’t like it) you may find out how much that gives you in mysterious ways. Asha also provides you the right experience to grow, become stronger and let go of your boundaries since they are an illusion any-way. Asha does not take into account your likes and dislikes though :)! So better let them go in order to avoid dualistic conflicts.
From a spiritual perspective the most important thing in life is Living in Attunement which basically means paying attention to your transcendental nature. When this transcendence which we call Nâm is your orientation, your body, mind, feelings, ideas and beliefs are placed in service of this tran-scendence and in order to function well it needs to be taken care of. Asha shows you how to do this. The listening is the difficult part for us because you need the right orientation and attunement for that.
“Directly after I met Yoginâm Abbahjí for the first time I got sick.
I could not work anymore and a new period in my life started.
Not the easiest but I knew it was not for nothing and it was meant to be.
Soon a natural doctor entered my path which I considered as Asha and
he could tell me what was wrong with me, I had the Lyme disease.
He also told me I had had it already since I was ten years old,
for me this made much sense.
Meeting Yoginâm Abbahjí caused that which was latently present inside me
to come to the surface in order to be transformed.
This transformation took me ten more years but it did teach me to listen to Asha and to find another life orientation.
What eventually was my cure? I am convinced it was ‘Living in Attunement’
Asha gave me the right experiences to heal which includes all the
Healings en Blessings from Yoginâm Abbahjí.
I became aware of my identification and how this was detrimental to my recovery.
Gradually I changed my orientation and from there my attunement changed and
I started to become more in control and the master of my life instead of the victim of circumstances.
By transforming in the Now more consciously I started to create a healthy future not only physically but also mentally, emotionally and spiritually.
Recently I went to a nature doctor as part of a natural dentist practice and
she could only affirm how strong and healthy I was on all levels.
For example she had never measured “only a 1% emotional ballast on people”.
Meaning & Joy of the Yoga of Nâm
Besides the tool of the spiritual master, Yoginâm Frédéric Antonious provides a new and modern way of life that gives powerful tools, ethics and suggestions for a way of living in Now that brings the orientation on the material and the spiritual more in balance.
The Yoga of Nâm gives a perspective on life that gives Meaning and Joy and is helpful during this life and after this life, since from a spiritual perspective something goes on, death is not the end of everything, just the end of a materialised presence.
This way of living with its ethics and very useful tools is presented in his new book ‘Meaning & Joy of Nâm Yoga’. A holy book in the way only mystics can write them, meaning it should also be read in a different, more contemplative way. The book is a user’s Guide for Life in which Yoginâm Frédéric gradually guides you to another reality.
And about Living Now? Abbahjí calls it Living in Attunement!
Quote from the book:
“In spiritual Maturity one realises that on the advanced levels all serious spiritual traditions are the same. You need to absorb one and follow it to the end”.